Sunday, June 15, 2008
IT's BEEN a lOng Time...
It's been a really long time ever since someone brought up the death of my mum.. Y did i have to pick up such a call.. Seriously, i dun need anymore information about what happened. I've decided to put it all aside and forgive, but i cant seem to forget. Really. I've been praying for more compassion to accept this fact, but still regret y i haven picked up the courage to say things to him. Thinking about the call, makes my heart ache.. It's hurting and I want it to just go away.. Father, Pls take it away, all away. I'm contented with what I have now, and i wan to live with it, not to dwell in the past anymore. Whom shd I trust? Someone dear to me, or someone distant?
Close cousins and church friends away in thailand. These few days staying at my cousins' place with the maid and grandma, have given me more time to reflect upon things, even things which i tot that i could forget, memories keep flashing back somehow. (I'm Sorry I lied that everything's ok, just didn't want u to worry..) I Will recover, i will...
Finally done with my dreadful module but another one yet to come. Seriously, 5 straight days of sch esp on my bdae week.. I dunno y i felt disappointed this time, is it really my expectations have been too high, I guess treasuring the ppl around u is somethin not easy to do, humans, yes, humans, when they give, they will want to receive. But I guess this theory is really hard to live by.
I guess it's true that as u grow older, the lesser friends u'll have, but those u have, will be closer to u.. Perhaps in my life, I've made too many friends, learnt how to treasure all of them.. It's a difficult process, n I'm still learning.
It's time I slow down my pace... Hopefully things will turn out much better.
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