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Monday, January 30, 2006

what i wore on first day of CNY. =)couldnt take the heels.. enjoy the rest of CNY ppl..

- s i m p l e -

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

I'm physically and mentally tired.

I guess the phone interview didnt' turn out too well, it got mi thinking even more bout my MP.. thinking there are loopholes. I'm not even 3/4 done with my MP.. still struggling to complete some of it by the end of this week, which is impt for mi to continue the rest of everything..
MP really draining most of us out. The reason for sleepless nites and late nites in front of the comp. I think I'll become eight -eyed at the end of everythin manz.

my ah ma's condition not realli improving.. supposed to go for Op today but got delayed till tml cuz she sorta had a mild heart attack today. haiX. she has been on " no food & drinks" for the past 4 daes already. oh manz. imagine living onli on that bag of sodium chloride and glucose drip . can u imagine the agony.. i See her on the bed, cant hear what she's mumbling.. lips n eyes so dry till it sort of cracked. and i onli can stand by the bed hold her hand.. i betta not continue b4 i fLood my rOOm again.

talked to dad bout overseas studying again todae. told him i could get exemption with my results at this uni. den he asked. :study in S'pore is it?" my reply: "no.. queensland". alRite, the rest you'll know what happened. I guess I cant sEem to open his heart. I'm tired of trying. Sometimes juz envy the rest, parents at least will sae they'll support half. now I get rite smack in the face w/o any reasons y i cant go overseas. I know it's not bout the money . aRgh

Guess I'm emotionally tired too.. I juz wanna walk away from everythin. jus give me a day off work and everything, and I'll be fine.

It seems so hard to ask for i guess..

- s i m p l e -

Monday, January 16, 2006

It's all happening over again. soMEtimEs i juZ aRgh!!

nVm.. guEss my tolerance level is veri high. It has no limits.. yarh no limits. yarh rite.

nO woRds leFt to say.. so be it, so be it. I can't help someone hu can't help themselves.

I'm upset, no.. angry, no.. fed up.. no.. perhaps all the above. or maybe noTx.. I duNnoz..

*I wanna go to the top of a moutain*

- s i m p l e -

Friday, January 13, 2006

i agree with wEe on how blog sEems to be a place to vent out whateva feelings we have.

I'm worried.. why are these things happening in my life now. She seemed to be insignificant as i grow older. but when i juz received the call, I can sae I'm really stunned. I dunNo.. aS i typE this entry, I'm tearing.. it's a feeling of unfilial piety.. a feeling of sadness.. i feeling of regret.. a feeling of i dunno what..Lord, pLs dun tell mi it's her timE to go.. i realli dun wan tt day to come. I'm not prepared, neither are any of the rest of our family members.

i feel terrible now. I'm soRry ah ma.. i realli am.. but u don't recognise mi anymore. I'm ashamed of neglecting u for the past few years .. to think U've lOoked after mi since i was born. U treat mi like ur dearest.. thinking back makes mi feel even worse.

Doctor plS do soMEthing.. Lord pLs tell mi ur plAnS.

* i HAte myself. *

- s i m p l e -

Sunday, January 01, 2006

WELCOME 2006!!

well.. Let's sEe.. at this point of timE most ppl will be blogging about their resolutions for the new year.. hMmz.. let's juz sae, I've haven realli sit n tot thru mine yet. Or rather I don't have a habit of setting resolutions for myself, cuz I seldom lOok back at what i set. ha!

hMmz.. so i guess I shall not bore u ppl with resolutions in this entry.

2005 has been a year of ups n downs.. and certainly full of memories that are simply unforgettable. from The ppl that i meet, the bonds that blossom, to the many breakdowns mi n my frenz faced. YUp, mostly by now u've ppl realised my life revolves around people, people and more people rather than things i guEss..

well, shall not be longwinded, and juz wanna thank everyone for making my 2005 a great one? upsetting one?? fufilling one? hmmz, i guess it's a mixture of all feelings. But certainly we've gotta learn to put the past behind and embark on this new journey in the year 2006. Look ahead ppl, u'll neva know what's in store for u.. surprises n more encounters with whatsoeva. haZ.

Do prepare and be challenged for this new year.. cheeRs peePx..

w/o regrets,

Emily.

* Ps: still thinking bout my resolutions.. loLx.. *

- s i m p l e -